Head Vs Heart

harsh fact of life is that you can never have all the things on your wishlist.
and no matter how hard you go for it, if it is not meant not be, it can never be.

effort is what needed most. yes. all you need is to put in effort,
consistently, or even more.

but dont you know, the most difficult thing ever on earth,
is to be consistent?
therefore personally i would say, i would rather go slow.
have faith.

yes you may say, iktisab is needed in Islam..
if you really want something, you really have to work hard and go for it.
but one most important thing called mistakes, that people usually do,
is that they are expecting too much than that what they are doing.

expectation kills, babe.
it hurts. alot.
when you expect too much, it may reflect to say that,
you dont believe in Allah's plan.
and when things didnt turn out to be well,
you tend to dwell.
and blame yourself for not trying harder.

head vs heart.
and this ultimate battle will then come haunting,
on which you knew then that your effort is going to be worthless,
but deep inside, you still want to give it a try,
and you end up giving up on what you have been waiting on for so long,
cause you know, you just cant make it,
anymore

or, it could be the other way round.
where your head tells you to just go for it,
but deep inside, you knew, it is just impossible,
and it's clear cut,
things can never be as how you wished it to be.

dont deny that you have never been in this kind of shoes.

the battle, that you would hate the most,
placing you in tremendously difficult situation called dilemma,
where you cant even think, nor decide,
either your brain or your heart, that tells you right.

and in the end,
the only thing you realise,
through all these hardships,
they were all blessings in disguise.

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head vs heart,
the ultimate battle, you can never predict on which will win.

an example to share,
i have been in accounting field for almost seven years,
and throughout those 6 years,
i have been telling myself,
this is bullshit, i am not going to make it.

but what more can i deny,
when i am now sitting in the living room,
spending my final week of my semester break,
waiting to enrol for my very final year of my bachelor studies?
yes dear, after 3 years.

my head has always been telling me, it is hard, but i just cant simply let go.
where my heart says, i should always go for what i want.

well up until now,
no decision has been made.
all i know is i am simply going with the flow,
and if my rizq happens to be in accounting/auditing field,
alhamdulillah, then it is worth my effort,
but if it is not, and i couldnt fit into this field, anymore,
then that is what we call takdir.
no matter how hard you try,
if it is not meant to be, it can never be.

well the same goes to other aspects,
like relationships..
those people who tend to act like they care,
but they actually dont,
but on the other side,
sometimes you tend to be as much optimistic as you can,
thinking that they do really care just because you can see through their actions,
cause you believe in the saying of action speaks louder than words,
but how can you be so positive in a situation, for example,
where you that he is already in a relationship with other girls?
how can you be so rigid saying that he cares for you?.
while he is taken?.

that is when you just cant brain this.
where your head contradicts with your heart.
where you cant really tell, on which is right,
your heart that loves them,
or your head that tells you to leave them alone,
cause you just know, you mean nothing.

well of course,
prayer is the only solution.

but all you need to bear in mind is that,
you need to expect less.
you need to have faith,
and most importantly,
put your hopes low on those things, or people,
that are certainly vague, and is at no clarity to your happiness,
go with the flow with much redha in your heart,
and that's when your head will tell you that,
everything's gonna be alright.

there it goes babe,
life is about balancing both your head and your heart.

iQah.